Weird Wednesday

I woke up around 7.30 am, opened my laptop and arrange my bed…again…some guest leave comments on something happened in the past..I ‘m really can’t say anything..can I just bother??..hmm whatever..

I get to the office with Leizl and reached there around 8.35 am. I went to Starbuck’s to buy my breakfast and then went up to my office. While doing my resort project, I’ve called my Grandma and Grandpa in Kelantan to ask on their condition…especially the condition of my grandma…since last week, I was not in a good mood because thinking of them..My maids that taken care of them said that my grandma was fall from the bed and now she can’t walk….

As my story before, my grandma was forgotten everything already, even she can’t remember my name when I went back last April before….I felt guilty because I’m not there to be with them. That’s the only treasure that I’ve in Malaysia…if they weren’t there..I would not be coming back to Malaysia anymore…

My maid just told me that my auntie that I hate the most would sent my grandma to the specialist in the private hospital in Kuala Lumpur….I feel it’s good for my grandma and I think that’s maybe one of the way that my auntie want to show her responsibilities now after abandon my grandma and let her live in suffer while she had a happy family, stingy even though she’s millionaire already…

I just prayed that My grandma would not be taken to the elderly house anywhere….If that’s happen, without further delay…I would fly back…fight or slap my auntie first then I would bring back her to the place she’s belongs…

Someone just complaining that her life was suffer…I just want to shared that I’m suffering lots more than you do….I’m suffering in everything…no love from the one that I want, no family which can accept me…and lots of friend that come and go…all the people like to be happy together but when we sad…no one would stay with me…no one ok……only advised that they can give…but do you think that the advised can solve my problems?

...people just saw that I’m happy to live here in Dubai..bought luxuries things…but all of you should be thankful to Allah that you can live with your beloved family, friends and lover….as for me? People just came and may take advantages..Promised something’s but in the end broke it….

Its hurt…everybody had feel what’s the felling when we get hurt especially in Love..even at the moment, I think somebody do love me..but I don’t know whether It last for how long…the condition is..the commitment that I’m offered can’t get with the same with what am I expected..and living and working with Malaysian people here…I just can’t get away with all the culture, gossiping, jealousy even they have more then what I’ve got…

Can this love be last forever…just let him decide…and I just pray…I try to find things that can make me happy but at the end of the day…I just don’t feel that was a happier things for me…it’s difficult to be human..I just wish that I’m a robot…don’t have feelings….

I’m ready to be called for my Appraisal, at 2.30 pm, my Design Director called me and we discussed about the things that I’ve written in the appraisal form…overall..the conclusion was quite satisfied...

I went back to my place..then suddenly I saw a friend of mine who just came less than 3 month had received his business card..I'm quite envy because compared to me, I'm working here more than 1 year already but I didn't received or get my business card...

Seriusly the management or may be the assistant HR Manager was bias and seriously she had start a battle with me now...if I'm lose..I'll make sure that she would suffer and pray not to be alive...just wait...

After finished my work, I went back and go to the car showroom to sign some documents...huh...feels like I want to hit the Asssistant HR Manager with my new car...she's really spoilt my day today..I know that all the Malay here want to take revenge to her and I hope that someone would do something to her..may be rape her and leave her in the middle of the desert...thats the equal punishment with the attitude that she got..

I reached my home around 9.00 pm, cook for my dinner and stressed with too many cockroach that appear in my entire kitchen...huh..I just get spray and killed them all...huh..Everything was not right today. I washed my plate and went to sleep.

umtil the next post..