Slowly moving forward

I woke up early and reached my office around 8.35 am….I didn’t eat anything for breakfast and just start my work…I’m preparing the presentation slide for afternoon presentation to the clients and I done it before 10.00 am…

I got another meeting with all of XEDL design staff and it was chaired by our Design Director…th purpose was to know about the progress of the projects and development and design solution…at the end of the meeting, our Design director just voice up his dissatisfaction with the staff attitude and performance..he doesn’t mention names but I just identify myself as one of it…

After the meeting ended..I continue my work….printing my slide for hardcopy copy and email the document to our presentation girls…I just proceed with the angular layout for my residential project….arranging the new plans and calculate the new built up area…

I had Nasi Lemak from Kak Julia…meeting her at downstairs and had a little chit chat…It reduced some of my stressed and built up my emotions….done eating, I do my work until the end of the day…..I went to the site office to sent tire for Wan Azmi and then back to Al Murroj Rotana to sent cake Lapis Sarawak for Kak Sabira…

The Human resource people came and asked me to fill up another leave application form because I had extend my leave combine with compassionate leave..don't know either they would cut my salary or not....I just prepared for anything...

It just hard to be me and had this kind of feeling…I’m really don’t know how to recover from my sadness…so many friends came and gave advised and some do come to cheer me up….but I just remains be the same…there’s lot of thing that I’m thinking and now I’m finding out the solutions for it…some may say that I’m too emotional but the reality is…I’m emotional….and now I’m lost…

For another few weeks, my age will be increase by another years….and all the past time that I’ve been through….It was not quite giving me hope to further up to live….as I’m losing my direction and reason to continue my journey…I do think that only 2 things that can make me survived and I don’t really know when I can accomplish the 2 missions….
I just justify my brain as just been beaten by the baseball stick……can’t even think…

Until next post….