Monkey Mat yeh Award and my pinky tuesday...

I've been awarded by my Sister Mother of two and the name of the award is..Monkey Mat Yeh (I Love Your Blog)...


ha ha ha..thanks for the award sister...and as to continue the tradition..I just want to hand over this award to 7 friends who always read my blog...and I do know, there's many more who read mine...thanks for everything...and for those lucky seven....

Suhaili Othman Lawyer di Miri

Khairul fazli di Selangor

Mem Aluyah Kuih Lapis

Abg Romzi di head Quarters

Imelda Kawanku yang paling comel

Kekasih Hadie yang ditinggal sepi

Nuyu penjual si baju baby....

Just claps your hand and cheer up together...just copy and paste it into your blogs and do read this instruction....ha ha..

1. Put this award into your blog..
2. Link it with the one who gave it to you
3. Give this award to 7 more of your friends
4. Leave a message that you have give them an awards

enjoy this award and cheers...

It was a normal day for me....slowly driving to the office after get out from my house around 8.00 am in the morning. I just singing in the car as usual just to cheer up my day and begin with happy mood.

I pick up Kamil as usual at Sheikh Esa tower around 8.30 am and we continue our journey to site office...and reached the destination at 8.45 am...I just start my monitor and start doing my work...around 9.30 am, suddenly Miss Lim from Human resource came to my place and handed me a letter...and I'm quite nervous to open it's content.

Stated in the letter was my current annual leave....The management have decided to deduct my 10 days salary because my leave that I've been taken had been negative 12. They cut 10 days salary for the month of November and another 2 days they cut my annual leave for the month of November..they had calculate that each month, I was entitle to get 2.5 days annual leave..mean that...with doing this, my annual leave will be zero and no more negative...and I'll get 2.5 days annual leave for December...if I'm not taking mc or emergency leave anymore.

Really can't describe this situation as bad or good news...i do think that I got both....quite headache when thinking that I've to pay lots of thing for end of the months...do hope that I'm surviving and maintain calm...seriously I had lots of pressure and stress...and I'm still continue living in this world.

I just doing my work until lunch time...and queuing for foods...

my friends having their lunch

lunch for today...curry beef

Wan Azmi, me and Adzurif

Azrul and Sharifah Soraya

Bro Azhan and Harris

After lunch, i just make a few phone calls and stay beside of my car...being alone and thinking a solution for my problems....quite critical and if I was not had a passion...would done several bad decision which cause uncertain circumtances....

I just continue my works until 6.00 pm, after pray...I went to the canteen and bought some dinner...fried noodles that cost me AED 5...the taste was not so bad..but I can't finished it...lastly I just throw it into the rubbish...sorry for the waste..

my early dinner

I went back home around 8.10 pm and reached my house after 40 minutes...quite tired, update my blog and I went to sleep early....I just being alone and listen to a song by Francisca peter..Aku Hanya Pendatang...

Aku bagai seorang pendatang
Ke sempadan yang mengasingkan
Sedang dulu di sini aku bermesra denganmu
Kedatangan tiada sambutan
Dan senyuman tiada balasan
Langkah kaki sampai di sini terhenti
Ku mencari
Kembali pohon hijau nan rendang
Di situlah kita berteduh
Dan sungainya
Bertali arus air mengalir
Bagai takkan berakhir
Dijadikan perlambangan
Tanda setianya percintaan
Dua insan
Perjalanan di tanah gersang
Tanpa sungai dan pohon rendang
Kau dan aku demikian diibaratkan

I just close my eyes and pray that tomorrow will be a better day for me...

until next post.

Most sleepy monday

I woke up early today and prepared for my breakfast..my house mate cook nasi lemak and I done the packing for myself. After that, I just had my shower, get dressed and went to the office.

Along the way, I’m stopping at Eppco pump station and fill my empty car tank. After 10 minutes, I’m continue my journey to the site office, at Sheikh Zayed road, I just stop for a few minutes and pick up Kamil at his house.

inside my car..kamil snap a photo

Mahfudz...

The traffic was quite slow and it took about more than 10 minutes to reach the junction. Again we, stop at Emarat pump station and stop to buy our breakfast. After bought some snack and chocolate, we went to the office and start working around 8.55 am.

along the way to site office...some minor accident

fountain at the treatment plant

Nothing much to say on my working task today, as usual I have to check the drawings, done some area calculation and putting the finishes signage at the floor plan. Harris came to my place and left his lunch coupon again for the whole week…considered sold..ha ha…obviously he will spend his lunch at Zabeel site office…very difficult for him to get food and I’m really don’t know what did he eat…

At 12.55 pm, I just went down and start queuing for lunch…today’s menu was chicken rice.

Abu preparing lunch for all of us

my lunch for today...chicken rice

Fadzil Landscape

Hairul Mat Zain and me

Joe in red shirt..my ex officemate in Veritas

I just realized that after a week I’m living at the site office, my eating desire was getting worst..just imagine that almost every 10 minutes, there’s always thing in my mouth for me to chew…huh scary…I never look at the mirror but I can feel that my cheek was getting bigger..and when I took photo of my body side angle…looks like a small dinosaur want to be.

Nothing special occurs today, I just snap a photo when Kamil and Farid did some fun fight..ha ha

Kamil and Farid

At 5.30 pm, I went down to the canteen and find something to eat..again...I paid AED 3 and grab a sandwich from the vending machine..

foods vending machine

chicken sandwich...for tea break

After 7.00 pm, I just pack my things and went back home..today, I just being tired and really don't know why...may be I did ate a lots until I'm lazy to do everything...I feel hungry but lazy to cook for dinner..lastly I went to the Mc Donald drive through and buy my foods..

my dinner....chicken big mac

Had my bath after dinner, updating my blog and I went to sleep early..too tired and ready for tomorrow battle....

until next post...

Shine sunday

Another day have come and I'm still alive....some part of me were thankful to god for still giving chance for me to live...and some other part was crying to death praying that I woke up as a different person and live in an happy life...

I woke up around 7.30 am in the morning, had my bath and went to pick up Kamil as usual at Sheikh zayed road. We stop at Emarat pump station and bought our food stocks...we reached the site office 10 minutes later...

After switch on my pc, I went to the pantry and had my breakfast with all my friends...today, Munzir cook for me fried mee hoon...it's nice but a little bit spicy..anyway..thanks for preparing food to me....really appreciate it.

my breakfast

Munzir and me

After breakfast, I just start doing my work until lunch....I just bought bread and plan to sleep during my lunch break...suddenly again, Harris asked me to use his coupon and take lunch at the canteen...honestly, quite shy when always replacing him for foods...and he's maintain skinny...pity on him..he he

my lunch..fish briyani

Loshini and Bro Roslan Muslim

My Elder brother and me..Ahmad Nazri..chief of my house

It was a heavy lunch and I'm so full..fortunately I was not sleepy and just continue done my work until end of the day...Umi Kalthom, my friend from Head quaters..(one of the Elit staff) came and discussing about her project..anyway she just doing very well....bravo dear...

Umi Kalthom and bro Yosri

I just had my bread that I bought from th pump station and ate it during tea time...after 7.00 pm, I just pack my bag and went back home...

Chicken mayonnaise bread..AED 4

I just feel quite tired working at the site office...losing my appetite and went to sleep early...some of you at HQ might be happy looking me living like this..but it wasn't stop my spirit for keep surviving...another day had been passed..with hours of life with sorrow...

until next post

Car service and Half day on Saturday

It was saturday and I woke up early today...I have to service my car because it was over 5700 km already and I must do the 2nd serviced.

After sending my friend to the site office, at 7.35 am, I went to Hyundai service at Ras Al Khor area...I reached there after driving 15 minutes from my site office. I was queuing for the registration because I didn't make the booking...but at last..they just do my car service....

one of the signages at the area

my car queue to be wash..

After waiting for 2 hours, around 10 am, I got my car...have to pay AED 300 for the second serviced...huh...actually, I was sleeping at the waiting area while waiting for my car...at least...for an hour...ha ha ha...

I drove back to my house in Satwa and clean up my cat cage and feed them....around 12.30 pm, I drove to my site office. I stop at Emarat petrol station along the way to buy some food for lunch...and I went to the restaurant next to the pump station...Green Apple...

one of restaurant for TAK staff to get their lunch

the menu

at the counter of the restaurant

and I just bought chicken burger

After get my food, I'm straightly went to the site office, punch in and went to the canteen and joined my other friends who already there and having their lunch..I forgot that Bro Janggut had cook lunch for me....then I just eat the Nasi lemak and leave the burger for tea time...

Nik Azmi and Hairullah

my lunch...nasi lemak cook by Bro Janggut

After had my lunch, I went up and start doing my work..nothing to tell for todays work..as usual and nothing special....my friend Razali from Head quaters came and discuss his project with Kamil...and I snap their photo..

Kamil and Razali

At 7.00 pm, I'm packing my things and went back home...today in my level...there's a CAD draftsmen had been sacked....don't know what's the reason and I heard that there's more to go....

The new MEMO had went out and said that all the leave application had been frizzed until further notice..mean that everyone was not allow to take leave..and for leave which had been approved...the management just take back the approval...for unknown reasons...people said that It might because of the Meydan Grandstand project which rushing for the dateline...if we couldn't reach it...may be all of us would flying back to Malaysia...huh..what ever..

I driving back and went to Singapore Deli with my friend to get our dinner..He ordered Sup Bontot and I had Nasi Paprik....taste like having dinner in Malaysia...

Sup Bontot

Seafood paprik with plain rice

After dinner, I just went back home...updating my blog, had my bath and went to sleep..another challenging day to face for tomorrow. Hope that I'm doing fine.

Until next post.

A thoughtful friday...Global village comes again

As usual, it was friday and it's an off day for me....I'm done lot of thinking today basically on what's happened in the past few days....at the moment of time...I do hope that all of my friends would give me a good advised for me to refer in concluding the way for me to continue...

After I fly back from Malaysia last month....everything was not going on track and I'm keep being hypocrite to myself and pretending to everybody that I'm happy and recover from everything... Obviously, it's getting worst....the one that I loved and hope to give me happiness just pour me his poison everyday....but I just stay calm and hurting myself just because I want to be with him..eventhough some times...I'm just holding a knife and want to stab myself so that I can die and off from the pain of love...

Maybe all my friends and close family members who do read my blog would say that just be calm and take it easy...but I just want to highlight to all of you that it's very difficult for me to do it....I'm always comparing to the other's like me that get what they want in life......a companion to do everything together and be in happy and bad moment of time...and until now...I didn't get what I want...sometimes..I just lose my passion to understand what else that the god want to do to me and my life...

I want to blame the creator that he had create me like this...having this feeling and born in this world just to keep hurting myself ....I do behave that I'm not thankful for what did I got in life....being as a soul that trapped in the wrong body really make me uncomfortable and lose my confident to continue my life....can God just stop my life and bring me out from the pain that I have...only he knows when my life would be taken back..

I'm being in the middle of conflict when I'm trapped in love, I just can't accept that I was failed to get the love and to love....I just think that the only way for me to get out from this was keep running....flying to somewhere else where no one would know me....and find the love that I want...not the love that all of you do ask me to get...because obviouly you were not understand who am I and what I want..

I hope..that someone will come and give his love to me because I'm desperately want's it.

I woke up around 10.40 am and eat breakfast done by my friend...After had my bath, I went to the mosque to perform friday prayer....I don't have mood to do everything and just stay in the room...my friend asked me to go to global village because he want to buy something...if I followed my heart..I don't want to go..but pity to them....I just followed and bring them to the place because just want to make them happy...

We went out from house around 3.20 pm...and reached there around 4.10 pm...we paid AED 10 each person and get to the place...it was a combination of cultural shopping and exhibition from all over the continent....

along our way to Global village through Emirates road

Harris, Bro Janggut and Bro Razak

at the entrance

We went to the first pavillion, Yemen when I introduced to all the brother that the honey from this pavillion was a must to buy....

all of them selecting the honey and taste

at the knife shop.....prepared to kill myself later

Harris pose at the Paris wheel

my pose

I just left them behind and find myself food to eat...they have their own purpose to come here and my purpose was finding a good foods.

strawberry with chocolate

All of the brother was hardly wanted to buy the leather jacket...I just bring them to the Pakistan pavillion and they just find what they wants..

inside the leather jacket shop

Harris with his new jacket and cap

Bj and Razak with their new jacket too

and again...I just stop for foods....crazy...while walking with them...I just miss someone that I love and really want him to be with me...unfortunately....again, he broke my heart and I just keep hurting myself...I hate this feeling

at Pizza hut

We continue walking around and snap photos....the photo below was taken at Syria pavilion..

photo of me

Harris

Harris, Bro Janggut and Razak

Bj and Razak with the tea man

We went to Thailand pavillion and get our dinner there...just hoping that we can find a foods that can cure for missing Malaysian foods...

in fornt of Thai Muslim cuisine

I'm ordered seafood fried rice

lantern in all around the village

I was amazed with one of the street artist that drawing human face in less than 10 minutes... just paid AED 50 and I asked him to draw my face...

self potrait in the making

this is what he drawn......does it look like my face?? you judge...

view at night..

After spending more than 3 hours at the place, we went back home and reached house around 8.30 pm...after had my bath and updating my blog....I watch James Bond movie..Tomorrow never Dies...and sleep around 12.00 midnight...

Always hope that tomorrow will give me some hope..but God just envy with me and he would torturing me more for the next days I'm still alive...

until next post